CHAPTER - 11

 

" Kya btau mai tumhe ? ki haa mai hu itni kamzor ki tum jaise insan ke liye apna pehla pyaar apna passion apna pehla khwaab chod diya.."

Abhimanyu was shocked. He became silent. His guilt was eating him. It was driving him crazy and again and again he was coming at that cross road where he had to choose one but in both the cases he is failing someone, and that is he himself. 

" Sakshi.."

"Kya Sakshi ? ha ? Kya Sakshi ? Yhi sunna tha na tumhe ki tumhari ego ke aage mera passion meri identity meri reality kuch nhi tik paye.. to suno ha jo tumne mere saath tb kiya tha tbse maine music ko chod diya hai.. jaise mujhse meri asliyat muu mod ke chli gyi uske saath hi mera music bhi chla gya.. "

The sound of lightening came but it wasn't only in nature it was also in Abhimanyu's heart where each and every word of Sakshi was acting just like a thunder. It suddenly started to rain. She looked up in the rain and said,

" Is barish ko dekh rhe ho Abhimanyu, yaad hai vo barish jb hum pehli baari mile the.." then she chuckled ," tumhe kyu yaad hoga tumhare liye vo sb koi mayine nhi rkhte.." She turned towards him facing him.

" Meri kya galati thi Abhimanyu ? ki ek nasamajh bn kr maine tumhe chuna ? Abhimanyu jb pyaar hota hai na to bs ho jata hai vo ye nhi dekhta ki kisse ho rha hai kaha ho rha hai kb ho rha hai bss ho jata hai.. to phir isme meri kya galati thi jiski tumne mujhe aisi saza di ? aree... agar galati thi bhi to mujhe akele mei btate aise sbke saamne bezzati krne ki kya zarurat thi ?"

Abhimanyu looked at her and for the first time in this whole while, he spoke, " mai janta hu ki tumhe ye shikayat hai magar kya tumhe ye shikayat nhi ki maine tumhe apnaya nhi ? "

Sakshi looked into his eyes and walked near him and maintaing that eye contact, she said,

 "Maine pyaar kiya tha lekin bina kisi shart ke.. Ha maine tumhe chaha magar kabhi ye umeed nhi kari ki tum mujhse utna hi pyaar kro ya pyaar bhi kro... mere mann mei jo tha mai bss tumse baatna chahti thi... tum chahte to vhi muu pr mere keh skte the ki nhi Sakshi mujhe tumse pyaar nhi hai mai vhi se chup chap chli jati aur zindagi mei kabhi tumhare saamne aa kr tumhe pareshan nhi krti."

" Sakshi mana maine tb jo kiya out of ego and attitude kiya.... galat kiya magar kya uski wajah se tumhe mujhse nafrat nhi krni chahiye thi ? meri ek harkat ne tumse tumhara pehla pyaar tumhara music le liya tb bhi tumhari aankho mei mere liye nafrat kyu nhi hai ? tumhe to ek achi wajah mil gyi thi mujhe bhulne ki phir bhi aaj ye din humari zindagi mei hum dekh rhe hai mehsoos kr rhe hai... kya hai ye sb Sakshi ?"

" Ha.. mana tumne jo kiya vo bhut galat tha... mere liye tumhe bhulne ka ek acha reason.. ha mai nafrat krne lgi thi magar tumse nhi.. khud se ki maine ek aise ladke ko chuna jise ek ladki ki izzat nhi... jo ek ladki ko sirf is baat ke liye ki vo usse pyaar krti hai sbke saamne uski itni bezzati kr skta hai... tum itne heartless kaise ho skte ho ? "

She turned her face and started crying silently. Her tears were being hided by the raindrops falling from the sky making both of them drenched in this water as well as some emotions which cannot be described. It seems so plain when we listen to it but it isn't that simple inside the hearts of those who are in this scenario. 

One is feeling guilty of his past deeds and upcoming wrong actions he is going to take, another was feeling vulnerable and tired of whatever blasts were happening in her heart. At one time it was happy seeing him, drooling over him, wishing him in her life, and in the next moment it pains remembering what happened with it, how she wished it to be and how it turner out to be. 

He kept his hand on her shoulder and turned her around, cleared her teared face and hugged her. This was needed at that time for both of them. The reasons were different, situations were different but one thing was same and that was they both were feeling suffocated and wanted some rest. 

She kept her head on his heart ad cried her heart out. 

But then she realized what she was doing, she immediately took a step back and came out of hug. Abhimanyu also came back in the real world. 

" Umm... tum gadi mei baitjo mai ghr drop kr deta hu vese bhi bheeg chuki ho tum aur raat ka wakt ho rha hai sardi lg skti hai tumhe."

She without saying anything sat back in the car.

He drove the car towards her house and turned the heater on. There was utter silence inside but loud noise inside the hearts of the people sitting inside the car. The drive was absolutely silent.

They reached her house and when she was going back inside, he stopped her but this time he held her wrist. This time also she didn't turn but she was waiting for him to say something. 

" Sakshi mai janta hu jo hua tha vo bhot galat tha magar vo wakt kuch aisa tha jo.... khair mai khud ko justify nhi krna chahta lekin bs ek mauka ek mafi chahta hu... mai is guilt ke saath ab aur nhi ji skta ki maine kisi innocent ke saath aisa kiya... kya tum mujhe maaf kr skti ho ? "

She neither turner nor said anything for a few minutes. But after approximately 2-3 minutes, she  turned and looked into his eyes. 

"Theek hai... mai tumhe maaf krti hu "

Abhimanyu didn't expect it to happen so soon. 

"Kya... matlab itni jaldi ?"

"Abhimayu Rawat mai tumhe maaf kr rhi hu lekin tumhare mann ki shanti ke  liye nhi balki apne man nki shanti ke liye. Mai ab khush rehna chahti hu apni life mei apni maa ke saath bina kisi burden ke.. aur uske liye meri life se Abhimanyu Rawat naam ke chapter ka khatam hona zaruri hai.. isliye mai tumhe maaf kr rhi hu taaki tum aur mai apni life mei ek nahyi shuruat kr ske."

He didn't understand what she said but one thing was clear that her this forgiveness meant his exit from her life. He didn't have words to say anything He was just standing there and seeing her slowly slowly going far from his sight.

His thoughts were disturbed by a phone call. He saw Karan was calling him. He answered the call,

," Abhi kaha hai yrr tu jaldi aa dinner ke liye late ho rha hai phir doctor bhi aane wale hai aaj uncle ka check up krne ke liye."

"Ha aa rha hu tu Dad ka dhyan rkh."