She was shocked listening to this was an understatement. She was angry like hell. Who was he to order her to leave the place ? What does he think of himself ? She is not coward that she would leave the place. She turner with a jerk and glared at him.
"What the hell did you just say ?" Sakshi said with so much anger that it came it out whisper to him. Abhimanyu for a moment thought of his words that what wrong did he say ?
Sakshi walked closer to him looking in his eyes with so much of anger. She said," Tumhe kya lgta hai me itni kamzor hu Mr. Rawat ki me aapki wajah se ye sheher chod dungi.... khud ko itni importance dena bnd kijiye aapke meri life me koi mayine nhi hai... you don't matter to me aur me ye jagah hargiz nhi chod ke jaungi tumhe agr itni hi problem hai to tum shauk se jha jana chaho ja skte ho but me darti nhi hu... me darpok nhi hu jo tumse darke bhaag jaungi.."
This surprised Abhimanyu as this would be the first time Sakshi was taking her stand in front of him that too this boldly. There was an unsaid proud feeling in his heart which he was feeling for her. But deep inside he knew this wasn't going to end well. He knew that the promise which he made at that time was going to make him regret life time but he cannot back off now.
"Fine then.. mera kaam tha tumhe ek advice dene ka ek baar vo mne di but it's totally your choice ki tumhe manna hai ya nhi and since you have chosen ab ready rehna... because aaj ke baad jo bhi hoga yaad rkhna ye tumne khud apne liye choose kiya hai..."
Sakshi was hell confused. She was not able to understand what Abhimanyu was saying.
"Matlab kya hai tumhara.... what are you trying to say please be clear.. mujhe kuch samajh nhi aa rha.... tum aur tumhari baatein they are just impossible..."
and then she goes inside her house while Abhimanyu was just waited till she went inside.
'Sakshi tum nhi jaanti tumne yha se na jaakar apni hi shaamat bulayi hai... mujhe maaf krna lekin ab jo hoga uske liye mai bhi majbur hu.." Abhimanyu though and went back towards his home.
Sakshi angrily came inside the house and directly went inside her room and closed the door with a thud. She sat on the bed breathing really deep.
"Sochta kya hai vo apne baare me ? samajhta kya hai khud ko ? mereko... mereko yha se jane ko kehne wala hota kon hai vo ? tumne ek baar phir se sabit kr diya Abhimanyu ki tum kabhi mere pyaar ke layak nhi the... ye to mai hi bewakoof thi jo tumse pyaar kr baithi.. kyu Abhimanyu kyu krte ho aisa... kyu hr baar mujhe dard dete ho..... bss Abhimanyu ab aur nhi... ab aur mai tumhare diye hue zakham nhi sahungi... agr tum ek chot doge to me tumhe 10 chotein dungi...." She suddenly something wet on her face and then she realized she was crying. " Aaj bhi kyu tum mujhe utna hi affect krte ho jitna pehle krte the .. kyu aaj bhi mere din ki shuruat tumhare khayal se aur khatam tumhare khayalo pr hoti hai... aaj bhi itne saalo ke baad tumhe dekha to 2 sec ko kho si gyi tumme.... kyu aaj bhi tum vhi jagah mere dil me rkhte ho.... kyu aaj bhi tumhe mai apne dil-o-dimaag se nikal nhi payi hu...??"
While Abhimanyu was driving, only one thought was roaming around his mind. He knew he wasn't going to do justice but the promise made him helpless but then why did he asked her to leave ? Shouldn't he be happy that he would be able to fulfill his pledge and be free from it ? Then why was he creating tough situations for himself only ? He knew that from college time only, there was something in Sakshi that used to trigger his emotions which he thought had left him since that incident. But it always came out like bully or anger or insults. Deep inside, he knew he had created this habit to talk to her whether in a good way or in his way. He still remembers that day when someone was forcing himself on her. He was just finding one of his gang members when he saw that. It boiled his blood. First he felt anger but then he felt kind of possessiveness which he noticed at that time. It confused him a lot. He was letting his walls fall for that girl whom he had bullied for like months. Slowly and gradually, he was being himself, he was being only Abhimanyu. He was being that lost Abhimanyu who forgot what is care ? But then he listened those 3 words from Sakshi which he still wished she would have never said. He hates those words. He had seen a harsh betrayal on the name of love in his life years back and what he did to her infront of the whole college was purely out of anger and frustration. He had no control over it at that time. And also he felt like he was not the one for her. She was too pious to be with him. He was a mess. She was like a pure and calm lake and he did not want to become any disturbance in it. After that incident, he felt really guilty and wanted to apologize but Sakshi was really hurt and did not come infront of him and he also did not have that courage to face her.
He stopped the car at Karan's house with a thought to have some break from continuous thoughts of Sakshi. He rested his head on the steering wheel.
Abhimanyu rang the bell of the main door.
" Abhi.. tu yha pe suddenly..! andar aa " and the door closed.
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